i just wish i can hold you tight.
u make me smile everytime u were there for me.
if only i could tell you the truth, i wouldn't be feeling this bad.
i suffered every pain which i think you did too.
you were the first to express your feelings towards me.
i just wish i could have said 'yes' that day and wouldn't disappoint you.
i'm sorry if i had hurt you.
i didn't mean it.
you weren't that shy like the guy before.
but i just don't know why i can't tell you this.
i love you much more than my cat.
i can't see you hanging out with them.
it hurts so much.
i can't bear you being hurt but i couldn't express this.
if only i could say, ' i love you,' i wouldn't have felt this way.
i just want to see you every seconds and everyday.
but i just couldn't.
i can't find you anywhere but only till you reached that usual place.
i couldn't deny the fact that i liked you from the beginning.
i loved you even if i don't look at you every time i see you.
if only i could say all the things i had written.
i just want to say that i love you!

oh my... i can't believe i wrote that. how touching! hmmm... that's my feelings now. and i can't deny it.
if only i can say that to you, i don't think you would have felt this way. i don't know what is your feelings but it should be pretty much the same i guess. DAMN! the oral was like susah. what the hell is 'golf stick' in malay? i was like so gagap! i wonder tomorrow what will happen. ada NAPFA lagi... sigh... i heard from Hajar that she cried because she was like ' freaking ' panic! i can understand her because I FELT THE SAME TOO! tak fair se Tiqqs dapat Cikgu Mel and my teacher was like Cikgu Farah.
when she looked at me, her face was like as if i failed and did REALLY badly! i didn't dare to look at her face. duhh... so scary manzxzxzx! i received a news saying that nenek Insyirah meninggal. Innalillah. kesian oi! i can still remember how she looks like last year. ish. then when Insyirah datang sekolah, she looked so sad and macam takde mood nak cakap. we can understand why. noone is online! i hope besok gambar senang! crap! kene buat standing broad jump besok! lece se... i jsut wish NAPFA tak pernah exist! i don't feel like nak pergi sekolah besok! big M! malas lah. itu yang cikgus ajar! hehe! merepek eh? i was so nervous as i was like shaking my leg like takde besok! then Ms ... asked me to relax and breathe! senang ah dia cakap sebab dia tak ambik! then cikgus advise untuk baca ' Bismillah' banyak-banyak. i did that lah. it works sikit ah but at least it works!
tons of homework still haven't been done for today. stress se! ewww! nanati ada uban like that person! adalah... tadi Iskandar was like kelakar gile. dia cakap, ' Siak ah! aku tunggu yang kurus, yang gemok pulak datang. block akunye way je...' yang gemok tu refer to Isabella. hehe! kelakar oi(sss). blehh! okayysss! GTG! update tomorrow! byesss!